Coming second

For a girl living in a pink world, she always dreams of a fairy-taled wedding with her first love. Yeah, coming first, how great could it be? You own her first kiss, first hug, first hand-holding...Just like buying a new dress, you feel it is completed, don´t you? Nothing to be compared with, no jealousy and doubt over her past, no wonder "did she look at him in that way, too?".....Don´t you feel like she is all yours?
Unluckily, coming first also means nothing to learn from, just like walking with your eyes folded. You have tons of things to expect from such relationship in mind, so bad you don´t really know what will fit you or how to fix it. Somehow it´s similar to online-shopping. Spending hours to explore the on-screen pictures or even to read loads of comments can´t stop you from ending up with wrong sized or wrong colored pieces. As time goes by (and as your purse shrinks...), you will have a much clearer picture of what will look good on you.
Thank you for not being my first love, panda, so that i now know i´m not looking for a prince charming or knight in shining amour (just fantasy, though). I´m looking for a man who feels excited just to imagine how cute of an old grand-mom i would be, who thinks living side by side with me in the next 50 years is not a disaster. Cause you can´t stay as a sleeping beauty all the time, right? (though i´ve never been one :D)
Maybe my heart is taken over by my mind from time to time, not crazily running like before, but i guess, it´s for the better. After all, i´m far from a teenager...

Between life and death

My little wonderful sister is now standing between life and death. To see how calm she is at this moment makes me feel ashamed of myself even more. There are tons of things you can re-start in life, but you only have one chance to live...
We are praying for her, for everything to be ok
And I myself have learnt a lesson today: no matter how hard your life might be, just feel grateful that at least, you are still alive cause that means you still have a chance to re-start....
Stop complaining, piglet!

Frozen yoghurt

Frozen yoghurt, my favourite snack in summer...However, thats not the way i want to live my life. Sadly, now im frozen, literally.
Have you ever felt like me now? Sitting inside your locked room, lights off, only the laptop is on. You feel like your head is really heavy, but not because it is full of thoughts, in contrast, you feel blank. You feel like an animal after a full meal, lots of energy have just been loaded but no mood to do anything. You are resting, but not comfortably. You feel lost....
My problem is right here, within me. Since I have got lots of things falling from the sky, I dont know how to earn those, I dont have motivation to do so.
But there is always lights at the end of the tunnel, my panda, hope he could get me out of this frozen status, cause i have seen in him, the most lively creature....

Confession of a shopaholic

Sometimes i need to keep myself busy just to get away from the screen with tons of tempting items. It is kind of addiction, a disease..
I dont really know what is going on in my closet, lots of dresses with similar colors, styles; loads of things i carried home without thinking how to put them into good use, how to mix and match. I saw something online, in a shop, through a window, and thought "ah, thats cute!", then i grabbed it in an instance. Thats definitely not so called "smart consumer". I end up with a full closet (not to mention numerous cartoon boxes here and there) but still find myself struggling every morning to get dressed. More than half of my clothes never get their own real life (be complimented on how good they look on me, stay under the sun or experience the wonderful scent of conditioner liquid). Just like a virgin never been touched! I feel sorry for them and of course, for my own wallet...
When i dropped by some fashion blogs like The Clothes Horse, JennifHsieh, I realized what really makes a fashionista is not a fully packed closet but an efficient one, u could give ppl an illusion of different looks everyday with just some must-have items. On the way to learn how to do that, unfortunately, like other pleasure, it takes time and....talent!
Btw, just saw a breath-taking purple dress on Topshop today, where can i get the pills for this obsession? :))

I must marry someone like you

10 things i hate about u:
1. I hate the way u walk, just like a duck (very fat duck, indeed)
2. I hate the way u eat, just like there is nothing else matters in this world (even me)
3. I hate it when u are obsessed with sanity (u know when)
4. I hate that u can not get my hints when it comes to romance
5. I hate that u treat me like a kid without any social skills
6. I hate when u r too sensitive with what i say
7. I hate ur big tummy
8. I hate that u r always in time
9. I hate that u r not patient enough to watch korean dramas with me
8. I hate that it is so hard to find out what i hate about u
But....i still must marry someone like u cause:
1. U wake up at night to cover me with warm blanket
2. U get wet under the rain to keep me dry
3. U r always patient even if i spend the whole evening in the bathroom
4. U never say no when i want to go shopping
5. U never get mad if i call u in the middle of the night for some stupid stories
6. U never break ur promises
7. U treat everyone with warm heart and kindness
8. U r willing to do the chores for me
9. U make me laugh when i want to cry
10. U have the warmest hands ever....